Monday, November 17, 2008
Hmmm...
I have this one post...I'm wondering whether its a good idea for me to post it up or not....

The question is...
Do I want a reaction or not?


hmmm.....



xoxo
The Possibilities & Bitchy Mode(On)
So...knowing the possibilities of me getting on a cover of a magazine isn't going to happen quite soon I have decided to add a little memory on the top left of my site.
ahahahah.
Vain?
Maybe...hahahah
(Btw this is going to be quite a bitchy post which people out there I am so sorry if you have to read this or want to cause honestly I have thought about this kinda things to say to people but I NEVER did or even if i did i failed miserably.)

I'm still very thankful though to get it and I consider myself totally lucky to get what i got though some people might think i got it cause of my friend's mom who works in FEMALE which is highly impossible considering none of my friends' mom works in FEMALE in the first place.
AND no its not the works of my other half as well considering my partner hasn't done anything at all in the first place(which I'm quite thankful for in some ways).

I would like to have a short thank you note here to Abhilash and Ilya for defending me with regards to the fake allegations that this certain "anony" had gathered at most probably near the dumpster of his/her house out of desperation to make him/her feel better.I have no idea.
And also considering you said that you were the contestant for the same batch it was quite daring yet stupid of you cause it just portrays that you totally wish to be where i am right now but in a million years wouldn't get there.(the chances of you getting it would have been higher if you weren't so cruel to innocent people in the first place...GOD works in many ways my dear)

You know I honestly don't get this anonys.
Its like I go to all this girls' blogs and most of them get this comments which is really hurting.
And this so called "anonys" just goes on and on and on.

Yes I know the blogs are public therefore anyone can read it and can voice out what they think but whatever it is please la show some humanity in you and have some sense to respect other's privacy,space whatever.

The reason why i back out its not cause I'm a coward.Why should you be a coward when you know you are right?But I back out because I refuse to stoop to that level of stupidity.
As some of you might see when Ilya and Abhi was defending me I just kept quiet(trust me i had so much to say)..its not that i didn't wanna say anything i didn't want to react to it.
They just wanted a reaction from me....any reaction would do for them because it gives a certain satisfaction to them that they can get to you just by saying things which are 99.99% bunch of bullcrap.

Dearest anony,
If you have a certain problem with me you can come up to me and tell it to my face.
Then maybe we can have a small talk while having a cup of coffee to settle the cause of your bitterness.
You really want to be on the cover?
Work your ass off then you might get it.I'm sure considering you were one of the contestants you must be quite good looking.
If you're the impatient type...cut my face off the mag and stick your pretty face on it.Okay?

That is all i have to say.

xoxo

Btw Have you guys listened to Kate Perry's new song Hot and Cold.Its so cute.

"You change your mind,
Like a girl changes clothes,
You pms,Like a bitch,
I would know"
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
So..I received this email...
From Rubee Shareen.

It was titled "Accurate Horoscopes".
I'm a nutter for Horoscopes so i click to open it.

I get confused sometimes considering I am born on the 23rd of November am i actually a Scorpio or a Sagittarius...am i a mixture of both??or am i more of a Scorpio than a Sagittarius or vice versa???

So i decided what the heck just read both.
Here is what it says about me:-

SCORPIO - The Intense One (Oct 23 - Nov 21)
Very energetic. Intelligent. Can be jealous and/or possessive. Hardworking. Great kisser. Can become obsessive or secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive. Determined. Loves being in long Relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times. Passionate and Emotional.

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One (Nov 22 - Dec 21)
Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

I sure do hope I'm a mixture of both ahhaahah.

Quite the scary.hahaha

This is of my best friend Ilya(the other one has the same sign as me so ya)
VIRGO - The Perfectionist (Aug 23 - Sept 22)
Dominant In relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to.Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.

I.so.totally.agree.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAAH

And this is of my other half:-
PISCES - The Dreamer (Feb 19 - Mar 20) Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Sensitive. Don't like details. Dreamy and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful.

This I also agree.

I honestly have to say that based on the above I don't think I am 100% Scorpio nor am i 100% Sagittarius.
Really depending on the situation I'm facing really.Sometimes I show more of the Scorpio side sometimes i show more of the Sagittarius side but that's my opinion.I guess other people would have a different opinion altogether.

Heading off to bed now.
xoxox

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Monday, November 10, 2008
Today I See My Title Disappear
I went for the Finals for the 50 Gorgeous this year.It was really a last minute thing but thank GOD!I dressed up properly(At least i think i did)=/

Seema the FEMALE editor turned around and saw me and waved...i waved back of course.
Honestly it wasn't as interesting as last year.Maybe cause I was the contestant then and now I'm the audience so ya.I decided to go up to meet up with my sister cause apparently she saw something good.

I got a call from one of ze people from FEMALE asking me whether was I there or not and i said "yes".
I was asked to give out one of the subsidiary titles which is Most Stylish Man and Woman Award(WHYYYYY COULDN'T I GIVE THE TITLEEEEE):P
It was pretty cool but at the same time it was a bit nerve wrecking for me standing on stage having more than 50 people looking at you.
In Zouk it was totally different it was dark and all I could see was the judges and of course the ones that came and supported me but THIS...OH GOD....broad daylight in a MALL!!!!O_O

Btw i know this is goona sound really random but Daphne Iking is so gorgeous and her body is like O_O and that is after she had a kid!!!!!!!roarrrrrrr....

So ya i gave the prize away AND my prediction was right.Dhanya Nambiar wonnn hahahahahahah.Its the "i told you so" face btw.
I kinda knew though that people were expecting Juliana to win cause when they announced Dhanya's name not many people were screaming of joy(excluding me of course...i was screaming her name...HELLO MY FELLOW MALAYALEE CLAN WON!)

Quite an experience i must say though I had a certain someone that couldn't stop commenting on how my skin colour in person and on the cover looked.
(I have to say though I like the cover picture I didn't agree with the fact that they totally changed my skin colour)

Thank GOD!ade gang there.Monica and Gavin came.ahhaah.

It was tiring cause of the wait.I was just waiting to give out the prize then i went off to makan.Was hungry as fuck wei to the point where my sentence didn't came out right.Like I wanted to say "I wanna Eat" instead i said "I wanna Hungry" =_=

The rest of the night I was in Chinatown yoooo.
Damn tired.
Going to take off my stewpit fake lashes now.
xoxo

Btw No Ilya Syireen its not that i don't miss you.I do and you should know that already.This kinda things doesn't have to be said:P

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Saturday, November 8, 2008
I Miss Bangkok :(
-I miss the time I spend in my resort home just sleeping in the hammock.

-I miss walking around Siam Area with my sister and my cousin for several hours.

-I miss the tuk-tuk.

-I miss having to sneak outside the house to have a puff or two with my cousin.

-I miss playing Guitar Hero in Bangkok(But that's cause i could get to the next level)

-I miss those really awesome cheap ass alcohol.

-I miss being able to buy any frigging cocktail that you want at the road side and shop while you drink.

-I miss having to get lost in JJ market(They have everything from a funky toothbrush to a puppy).

-I miss Spicy.

-I miss Bow and Kik though Kik is not around she will always be in my heart.

-I miss the food courts in TOPS,Big C and Tesco cause they sell really awesome food.

-I miss "hoi-tort" (Fried Egg + thai chilli sauce + beans sprouts + clam + spring onions)

-I miss "kao men khai"(Thai version of chicken rice)

-I miss MBK(A famous restaurant that sells the best green noodles with roasted duck meat)

*k...I'm muy hungry*

-I miss the beaches there(The last time i remembered going to a beach there was when i was...4?)

-I miss having to try to speak to the Thai people and getting a migraine in the process cause i was busy translating in my head whatever i could understand to English.

-I miss getting the "look" from Juan when I translate a price wrongly to her.ha.ha.

-I miss THAT trip.(That is where I met Hero and where he came from)

-I miss the ta-lats (night markets).

-I miss being called Jew(Small) and well...Pee Ta-Lat(Night Market Ghost)

-I miss the trip I had with Khanitha and how we came up with individual nicknames for each other.(No I'm not going to tell mine but her's was Ms.Discreet)

-I miss looking at pretty Thai Girls and Boys.

-I miss the Rainbow shot.

-I miss the sight of how the Thai people respect and love their King.

-I miss my uncles and being paranoid about them being at the same place as i am when i'm up to no good.

-I miss my big aunty and her naggings(half of the things I don't understand anyways HAHAHAH)

-I miss my youngest aunty cause she loves shopping as much as i do.

-I miss my mom because when she's there she's the coolest mom to ever hit this planet.

K...I miss alot of things.
I think I have decided....I'm going to stay in Bangkok.I don't know how.I don't know when.I don't know where.Whateverr la k...I'm going to stay in Bangkok.

xoxox

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Wednesday, November 5, 2008
"Fill In The Blank" Attack
Okay...so...my birthday is coming and....I STILL HAVEN'T FOUND A PLACE YETTT.
My exams are coming up and....I'M DOING THIS BLOG RIGHT NOWWWW..

ARGHHHHHH!!!!

Kkkkk...relax Suchitra...just...relax....

Man..I can sense that this month is going to be really retarded for me as one of my chicken friend would say "So gay"..

Nothing much has been happening for me lately...really....
Now that when people ask me what's up...i have this fixed answer which could possibly be classified under "Templates" now...
"Nothing much...just chatting and checking my mails"

My current music that I can so totally feel right now is Indonesian Emo Music.
Seriously even the English ones aren't as emo as the Indonesian ones..

Today is the day that I would have to make a choice.
When I do make that choice is when everything will change quite drastically..
My fear is that...i make the wrong one.
A choice that could destroy everything in me and around me.
(Whow sounds so drastic ...i am a very dramatic person ya know):P
But at the end of the day...I will have to make a choice.The choice.

The people of the United States made their choice...They decided to make a difference and believe that making that choice is for the better of their people and the country.
Congratulations to the first African American President of the United States, Barack Obama(Damn his victory speech is giving me the goosebumps..THAT'S HOW GOOD IT IS!!!)

Everyday I'm going to make a point to tell myself that I am Bolder...Better and Smarter(and maybe Taller ha-ha)
Its time to make a change.

xoxo
Thursday, October 30, 2008
:(

Kekasih Gelapku

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Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintai mu, sedalam-dalam hati ku
Meskipun engkau hanya, kekasih ge~lap ku

Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cinta ku,
yang ku cari s’lama ini, dalam hidup ku
Dan hanya pada mu ku berikan sisa cinta ku,
yang panjang dalam hidup ku,
hidup ku…

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Meskipun kau hanya, kekasih ge~lap ku
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